I Need You.

    I really need someone right now. To help me through all the pain and suffering. But the problem is that I have no one. No one to turn my head to for comfort. No one to tell me i'm beautiful even when i'm an emotional wreck. I just want that one person who I can look forward to seeing every damn day. Just hold me like everything is going to be okay. The problem is, that I don't think you exist. At least I haven't been able to find you yet. I want to be the girl who can look past your flaws. To tell you I love you no matter what happens. Tonight I needed you more that ever before. Confiding in my mom was great, but as much as I love her. She can't be my emotional soundboard forever. I want to have that person. The person you can go up to after a long day, and just be with them. Without any explanation. Because they know that when you're ready you will fill them in on everything that they need to know. What happens when i'm at school. My mom's not there to be my sounding board. And that's where i'm most afraid i'll break down and they'll be no one to catch me as i'm falling. I know that in reality no one is perfect, but can't i have someone who's perfect in my eyes? The pain and anger and depression is building inside me. I don't want to break down. I can't handle that without you. Are there people I think might make the cut sure, but they don't feel the same. They may care about me. But they sure as hell don't express it. I think i'm waiting for something that'll never come. I'm withering away inside, and I have no idea how to stop it. I need someone to help me see the way. Something to go through each day for. Because right now I feel like i'm just going through the motions.